rant #78: the one about her srz bznz.

Product name: Pilin.
Made from: Sugar, spice, a pinch of dirt and everything nice.
Date of production: Sometime in November of '87.
Date of expiration: Unknown.
Nutrition: Good for relaxation and a laugh when bored.
Direction: Guna bila perlu dan punya masa lapang.
Price: Varies. From a simple "Please" to "Alrite, you'll get what you want Bitch."
Warning: May cause heartaches and headaches.

Sold in selected locations.



p/s : I have a game, its called "See how long she can last with her pretend face on". Wanna bet?

rant #77: the one who feels dead inside.

"Will you lend me an ear? I guess I just need someone to talk to."
"Fatal combination; wallowing in self pity with a hope of getting better.
And yet here I am doing the same."
"What a burden it is to carry a heart. Will it feel better without one?"
"You should know that I have not given up hope untill the last minute of time and that leaves me no room to save myself."



p/s : I guess you're no psychic either.

rant #76: the one about her and ze gang.

Hai.
Ni video hari jadi i yang lepas dengan kawan-kawan i.
Kami awesome.
Kthxbai.







p/s: my friends, we'll be together till the end.

rant #75:

lagu lama.
ingat?



p/s: come back and sing.

rant #74: the one who sadly, will never understand.

Ini post random, tajuk juga random. Mungkin datang dari imaginasi.

Hari no 1.
"Sape?"
"Adalah."
"Berahsie sangat."
"Kamu pon sama."

Hari no 2.
"Omygod."
"Dia datang."
"Aku harap dia kena transfer pegi Iraq."

Hari no 3.
"Ah perlu tules nama ayah, nanti orang salah faham."
"Sapa la aku nak cari gadoh dengan kamu."

Hari no 4.
"Rasa besi dalam mulut."
"You tolong google apa sakit i."

Hari no 5.
Belum jadi lagi.




p/s: Try hard to learn to listen. I'm talking my words, not your's. I'm saying what i want to say, not what you want to hear.

rant #73: the one when she felt sorry for You. You're Pathethic.

Ronan Keating cakap,

"You say it best when you say nohing at all."

And aku guna ayat atas dalam cara paling tak romantik yang aku boleh.

So please kau, stop bercakap.



p/s : No there's no trouble in heaven. The only trouble is when you're outside.

rant #72: the one tentang cereka pendek yang berdasarkan sebuah lagi cereka pendek.

Ini ceritanya.
Sebenarnya, saya sakit hati.
Saya sakit hati sebab rasa macam ada tombak tajam tembus hati.
Cucuk cucuk, macam nak mati hati.
Haha. Ini seriyes.
Pergi kampung ke kampung cari orang untuk ubatkan.
Pergi bandar ke bandar cari pakar untuk sembuhkan.
Tapi semua cakap,
"Dik, Atok rasa adik kena buatan orang. Sihir Siam, susah mau ubat."
"Fahilin, Doc rasa kamu ada Streptococcus pneumoniae, Haemophilus influenzae, Moraxella catarrhalis. Tapi mungkin kamu tak cukup minum air saja."
Angguk angguk aku dengar cakap mereka, mereka pakar aku yakin.
Hurm, aku mengeluh.
Jadi terus aku,
marah diri sebab malang.
Dan terus aku,
tak puas hati dengan tuhan sebab jalan hidup aku macam ini.

Berdiri seorang aku lihat bawah.
Eh memang ada tombak.
Gotamit.

"Kadang kadang kerana taksubkan pencarian, kita abaikan apa yang kita cari tu."

Aku jadi berani, aku cabut.

The end.



p/s : Kamu faham? Orang cakap, jarum patah jangan simpan dalam peti.

p/s/s : gambar dari saharil.

rant #71: the one when she feels all dark and gloomy.

p/s: hilite untuk tahu rahsia hari ini. ini bukan main main, ini lu pikir la sendiri. GOTAMIT!

rant #70: the one about her i, i, i.

Cause,



i have nothing more to say.




p/s: i always find something to bruise and leave behind.

rant #69: the one about the secret. SHH.

Betul.

http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

Tak mau sampai jadi macam tu.
Faham?

"Past is past" , "Why should kena bother".

Ok faham.



... so this weekend apa plan? haha



p/s: It'll take more than just a breeze to make me fall over, fall overboard.

rant #68: the one where she _ herself.

Hands down,
I'm too proud, for love,
But with eyes shut,
It's you I'm thinking of.

I think I'm a little bit,
Little bit,
A little bit in love with you.

But if only you're a little bit,
Little bit,
In love with me.



p/s: if only.

rant #67: the one about her not so past life.

Dulu aku,
1, sekolah kampung.
2, paling pendek dalam kelas.
3, yakin station radio light n easy station radio paling cool.
4, rasa budak lelaki sangat hebat boleh keluar main sampai maghrib.
5, pengawas sekolah.
6, pernah kena tampar dengan cikgu sains.
7, langgar motor waktu umur 5 tahun.
8, jatuh dari motor yang belum bergerak.
9, suka round round kampung naik basikal, nyanyi lagu my heart will go on, celine dion.
10, pernah kena pulau waktu umur 7 tahun, bodoh mereka kata.
11, selalu naik pentas akhir tahun ambik trophy.
12, sangat berani stay up sorang diri tengok tv sampai 4,5 pagi.
13, layan match bola sepak and wrestling dengan ayah and abang abang, WWF sangat awesome, jangan cuba bantah.
14, pernah ada crush dengan budak baru pindah sekolah waktu umur 12 tahun, dia dari us, and cara dia speaking sangat cool.
15, suka main layang layang waktu petang.
16, sangat suka uniform kadet trafik yang penuh butang butang silver shiny shiny.
17, rapat dengan nanny, selalu ikot balik kampung dia, belajar makan makanan kampung.
18, tak pandai dengar lagu melayu.
19, sangat garang waktu jadi ketua kelas, lepas tu tak dilantik da.
20, pernah kencing dalam kelas! darjah 3, sebab tu tak lepas pts.
21, suka lompat lopak air, dah sekolah menengah dah, masih lagi budak comot.
22, tak pernah ada kasut sekolah putih. hari pertama awal tahun saja mungkin putih.
23, sangat suka jam adidas macam jantan.
24, pernah ada bag sekolah warna merah kulit keras macam cenkerang remaja mutan ninja turtles.
25, dapat result pmr yang sangat bagus.
26, terima result spm yang sangat buruk.
27, seorang budak matrikulasi di changlun. honestly those were the best days of my life.

Sekarang aku,
1, (seorang pelajar wanita size s yang belajar di utp dalam bidang engineering yang diminati tetapi malas yang menyebabkan pointer nya kalau diplot jadi graf akan menunjukkan tangga one way turun, akan awkward secara tiba tiba dan akan bercakap benda benda yang tak sepatutnya, suka memeluk, dipeluk, memanja, dimanja, berkasar, berkaca mata bingkai merah, pemakai tshirt, sliper dan jeans ketat, akan berbraces untuk lagi setahun, minat mencari lagu lagu dan band band luar-local-bawahtanah-atastanah-u-name-it-i will-find-it, film film "indie" dan documentary) = geek.
2, ada kawan-kawan yang super awesome, aku yakin mereka semua ada magic sebab pasti akan happy bila jumpa.
3, proud owner of a brown bear. Baru meningkat dewasa, tapi perlakuan dan rupa akan buat orang ingat ia beruang tua yang mungkin sudah bekerja.




p/s : Who we were made who we are. So there's no point in being someone else, such a shame if all those years of building who you are goes to waste.

rant #66: the one about the lost and the in betweens.

Ikue Asazaki, Obokuri Eeumi




In search of new lands, I build a new house
I thatch the house with reed stalks... gathered neatly in bundles
I thatch the house with reed stalks, gathered neatly in bundles
At the stone wall, let us celebrate the golden house, that was built by a hundred black kites.
At the stone wall, let us celebrate the golden house, that was built by a hundred black kites.
Let us celebrate the golden house, that was built by a hundred black kites.

(long pause)

The eighth month is fast approaching, and yet I have nothing to wear
I want to dress gaily, so brother, will you lend me just one sleeve?
I wish to dress my children and loved ones... in the one kimono that I own
As for me, I will wear vines... that I plucked deep in the mountains

(long pause)

The light of the full moon shines down,
illuminating the world with its divine light

When my lover sneaks in to visit me,
I wish that the clouds would hide that light just a little.

...


I love this song.
Pejam mata and hear her pain.
Emotional much?



p/s : yeah i know i have weird taste in music.huh!

rant #65: the one about the bears.

part 1, beratur beli makan.
me : lalala..beli ma-ka-nan..lalala *not outloud ofcourse*
adik comel : lalala..main lari lari..lalala
pakcik with rolex : lalala..i'm QUE CUTTING..lalala

part 2, adik comel langgar saya, saya langgar pwr depan.
me : ..
me : sorry..so..
pwr : HESH LANGGAR AKU PULAK, TAK RETI NAK SABAR SIKIT?!

part 3, the anger.
me : SABAR SABAR SABAR?! kau nak cakap dengan aku pasal sabar?! Lu potong que APA CITA HAH?!



Ok fine, part 3 never happen. more like,

me : (slightly open mouth, muka terkejut) Damn, i hope you die getting crushed by...URGH...10000 BBBBEARS. HUH. (dalam hati)


Tak reti menyumpah.
Pathetic.

-

But at last da at home now, happy betul.
And btw,

Mr Popi,
selamat 6 bulan :)
and selamat 21 tahun.

Watch things on VCRs, with me and talk about big love
I think we're superstars, you say you think we are the best thing

you are my bear,
143 babe :)




p/s : glee-ing :D

rant #64: the one about her first _ .

p/s:I can draw the line on the first date but I'll let you cross it. Let you take every line I've got.

rant #63: the one about the modern way.

i will,

Take a lesson
From the ones who have been there.

for,

My brain is not damaged
But in need of some repair.

i will,

Hold on to the basics
But i can change all our tactics

for,

There's no point in sitting
Going crazy all alone.


This is the modern way
Of faking it everyday.


And we're not the only ones
I know 'cos I've seen it.



the cribs, modern way.




p/s : Perasan we share the same skies?

rant #62: the one about her "shallow shallow" people #2.

Oh God, I miss my ___
It's only been a night
I miss the last time that we had a fight
Isn't it sad?
Won't you say it's bad?

I don't care.
And if I have to I'll read your books cause they'll remind me of you,
And I'll learn your notes so that I have a clue,
And I'll watch your films so I'll know them through and through,
And I'll do the things that remind me of you,
And I'll wash my hair in your shampoo,
And I'll buy your perfume and spray it 'round my room,
And I'll smoke your cigarettes so that I'm dying too,
And I'll call you up.



Am I sane?




p/s : fa la la la, fa la la la.

rant #61: the one about her "shallow shallow" people.

Hey rumie,
walaupun kadang kadang awak cakap awak gemuk,
walaupun kadang-kadang saya tinggal awak pergi kerja sorang sorang,
tunggu bus sorang sorang, jalan balik sorang sorang,
walaupun kadang kadang saya bad mood dan tertempias,
walaupun kadang kadang awak buat saya benci Big Bang tersayang sebab alarm pagi pagi tu,
haha, BUT
i still love you.

Aku harap kita akan gemuk sama sama,
kurus sama sama,
sampai kau dah ada anak anak,
and anak anak kau dah ada anak anak.


p/s : xoxo!

rant #60: the one who's dying (for fun).

Midnight Surprise





Warm nights and the chill,
Creeping down my bones,
Reminds me I'm alone.

Wake up, smell the semen,
This will never happen for you,
Waiting in silence,
And cloaking my violence,
You, almost encourage,
My happiness,
But I know best.

And what is left ?
Of this? My fare is calling down,
For you all to go away.

I'll fire in the sun.
I'm dying, just for fun.

I guess, deep down,
My heart is not as pure as it was.

Oh,
Wake up princess.



p/s : thanks to topshop.

rant #59: the one where she's in rainbows.

3.26 pm.




Your eyes
They turn me
Turn me on to phantoms
I follow to the edge of the earth
And fall off



p/s : Why should i stay here? I'd be crazy not to follow.

rant #58: the one where she said it loudly "TERBAEK!"

Description terbaik.

John Hafiz

Lelaki import yang membuatkan gadis, wanita dan perempuan tempatan ada sebab kukuh untuk berhias.

Lelaki paling sempurna. Comel dan terpaksa berlagak.

Permata di hati wanita, kaca di mata lelaki. Bukan penulis, idola setiap penulis.

Anak kepada seorang ibu, kekasih kepada lima ibu yang lain.

Sudah dua belas tahun meninggikan suara pada ibu.

Marah dengan cuaca panas. Merungut bila cuaca mula lembab.

Etika lelaki sejati, seumur hidup, tak pernah terperangkap dengan

helah teman wanita untuk menolong memegang tas tangannya,

HELL NO!

4 alasan yang I boleh guna untuk mengelakkan dari Fleur meraba bahagian peha I.


"Duit I semua ada dalam wallet dekat poket belakang la."

"Pak I garang tau."

"Dalam budaya kami di Malaysia, meraba peha adalah amalan ahli sihir."

"Aduh. Aduh. Situ ada bisul! Mata pun tak tumbuh lagi!"

Satu pun tak terkeluar dari mulut I. Oleh kerana terlalu panik, I berkata,

"Hey, nice move."

p/s : "Awak John Hafiz kan?"

rant #57: the one where she angguk-angguk faham.

"sayang mungkin baran tak kira masa tapi
sayang tahan kalau yang salah saya
sayang mungkin saja keras kepala tapi
sayang manja bila kita berdua"


aku lebih bengis dari sang naga
tapi bisa nangis semata demi senja
suaraku keras tak berbahasa
kerna aku rimas gedik mengada-ngada


aku mudah baran tidak semena
mana boleh tahan angin cemburu buta
dan aku sengaja tunjuk keras kepala
aku punya manja kau saja boleh rasa



p/s : Our secret. SHH.

rant #56: the one whom she misses (BADLY).

me: i suka tgk u blushing

i xwatpe la syg

i duduk rumah tdo je

:(

telinga i sakit

pastu sangkut ke kepalaaien_melayang: ha tinge saket?

mandi pool ke?

me: aah

huuu pel u ingat!

~_~

*mata berair

aien_melayang: hahaha

hrusla

mst aku igt

pas mandi d kolam yg dpenuhi chemical

nie la kesan yg ko dpt

hahahaha

xbaek gelak

x

x

me: hahahahaha

aien_melayang: i cian kt u


U remembered. haha. I love you.
Bila boleh jumpa lagi?
Kawan-kawan buat aku rindu utp.
Sunyi buat aku rindu utp.
Lapar buat aku rindu sithick.
Panas buat aku rindu t1-6 yang tak pernah tak sejuk.
Air buat aku rindu tasik.
Polis buat aku rindu pakcik guard.
Boleh sampai macam tu? haha.
Hurm.

rant #55: the one who misses her elliott.

I could make you satisfied in everything you do
All your 'secret wishes' could right now be coming true
And be forever with my poison arms around you
No one's gonna fool around with us

.

Vanish into oblivion
Is easy to do.
And I try to be but you know me
I come back when you want me to.

Elliott Smith, Miss Misery.





p/s : Read the lines in my hand, tell me I'm strong.

rant #54: the one where she writes about her day.

Today in non-motion pictures.

1. Woke up at 5.40-ish. Bau wangi, saya suka.
2. Kerja! Pegi meeting kat tempat paling tinggi. Sakit telinga naik lif laju. Tingkat 74, boleh nampak kapal terbang lalu bawah. I waved :)


3. Lunch, favourite hour of the day! Ate,
Jalan jalan with,and

4. Balek tunggang lrt. Tunggu bus, then jumpa si Jayzuan,


5. 8.20 pm arrive home.
End of another typical day for her. If bukan sebab i have you(s), i doubt i will have any ounce of fun.



p/s : No matter what you keep repeating, nothing's gonna drag me down. :)

rant #53: the one where she overthink.

Life feels like,

to make fool
and to be made fool of.



p/s : They paint themselves with a cheery mask and pretend everything is ok.

rant #52: the one where she's oh so zzz.

Hidup.

(ouh lupa, banner leads to enlightment)

p/s : To quote, "Jadi rakan ku, carilah hidup yang lebih bermakna, kerna dirimu begitu berharga."

rant #51: the one who is still writing.

Because its 2 am, and she can't sleep.

3 : Backyard.

2 : Bintang.
1 : Family


i miss Sungai Petani.




*gambaq courtesy of along, dear along, i know you don't hear this often, especially coming from me. but yes, i DO miss you too*



p/s : Its the small simple things that sticks in your mind and makes you smile just by thinking about it.

rant #50: the one where she feels all blue.

Moody? Maybe.
Tidor petang punya pasal?
Duit punya pasal?
Kena tinggal punya pasal?
Tak boleh tidor punya pasal?
Who knows kan.
Tapi sekejap sekejap saja OK.
Tak leh lama-lama, kita tak boleh selfish.
Count the blessings kawan-kawan. Jangan lupa.
Utmost important.
Tapi kadang-kadang aku selfish.

Ouh,hurm.






p/s: Mahu tidor, please mr sandman please sprinkle your dust and make me sleep.
*sniff sniff baju coklat ni.

rant #49: the one who IS SUPER TIRED.

The title is self explanatory.



I am tired of this so called intern.
Still 7 month to go.
WTF.




p/s: Sapa cakap honeymoon? GRR.

rant #48: the one about syeera and you.

semalam hanya ada aku dan hati kecilku
tp hari ini ada aku dan kamu



p/s : syeera budak kecik umor 15 tahun yang jiwang. thank you syeera.

rant #47: the one at the pyramid.

I will find my niche in your car
With my MP3, DVD, rumble pack, guitar

Don Quixote was a steel-driving man
My name is Pilin, I'm your biggest fan

so,
Squinched up your face and do the dance!

(tak ryhme kaw kaw)

p/s : You're my part-time lover and a full-time friend.

rant #46: the one who is all AWESOME.

Malam tahun baru.
Wut I DO!

1-Tengok fireworks. Awesome GILA tengok duit terbakar kat langit.
















(scene bukan seperti gambar tapi lebih awesome. SERIYES)

2-Pizza yang juga awesome. Tapi makan lasagna yang awesome lebih sikit.













(bukan pizza sebenar)

3- Main card dengan Ahmad Popeye dan tuan rumah, Nora Bahar. Awesome? SANGAT, sebab aku pemain card yang pro kan kan kan!

(gambar : imagine 3 orang main card tapi sorang macam ada aura terer gila babi (aku) dekat ruang tamu rumah. haha)

Selamat 2010!

p/s : Years come and go. People too. But do appreciate the ones that stick around eventhough they are not as shiny and polished like the new ones.